Cause nothing going right, everything's a mess and no one likes to be alone - Avril Lavigne

Suddenly I thought of this song - I'm with you. Sometimes I wish a good stranger would come and take me away. Take me to Never-land & shield me from damage or rather shield me from damaging others.

I returned home,tired and grow frustrated while I was bathing. Frustration just builds from within and I feel more so angry for not being able to share them or maybe release them.
Don't assume that I am often simple thinking and as cool (or so I was told) and collected as I seem. I fucking ain't no robot and I feel frustrated that all I could do is to learn to deal with all those frustrations myself.

I thought of what happened on last Monday. Have we drawn a conclusion from that few hours of talk and tears? Have we? How come I feel more frustrated than ever?
Like what the fuck is wrong,really?

I came home from AMK. I decided to go there afterall. I thought of checking out that FCUK watch & buy my mum the durian pancakes.
Good news is that FCUK watch is lesser than I thought. After the 20% discount, I find it somewhat reasonable and I decided that is the year end gift I should get for myself.
The not so good news is it is now only available at Century Square. WTF?! I only saw it there last week and now it shifted to Century Square? If I don't get it this week, would it even be there?
Reached home tired,hungry and realised that mum drank the bubble tea brother bought for me last night.(She knew it was for me.) I didn't have enough time to control myself and showed her the (T__T) face.
Then my dad came in and reminding me the monthly allowance. I withdrew already but just have not gave them because I just reached home.
To be honest, I almost felt fucking pissed. I would really be if they aren't my parents.
I just feel damn frustrated.

I calmed myself down but really gobbling down my food. I figured I was frustrated cos' I was hungry. I ate fast and ugly. But hunger ain't the factor that I am sitting down alone and gobbling down the food. I did it cos' I want to eat it fast & no one would find the chance to talk to me.

I am asking why's the frustration? Don't I have enough to make me feel happy? Why am I angry? Am I angry with them or myself?

And I long for someone new, someone brave, someone smart, someone strong....Just take me away.
Like which girl doesn't?

You.No solutions for me.
Me.No happiness for you,who and what.